Sharing a broken heart........

How can I do it? We have a Destin, Fl. trip planned with Andy's family for May 10th-17th. Andy knew he couldn't get off the whole week but maybe part of it. We found out yesterday he doesn't get any days off. I am fuming. After flying by myself to Vegas I know I wouldn't be able to do it with two kids, and be a good Mommy, or one at all. We have been talking about this family vacation for months! A.J. is so excited about looking for seashells and building huge castles! How can I , after feeling my own heart being broken, break his heart? and everyone else's? I can think of a couple options. One would be to rent a car, and find someone to drive there with me. (WHO?) Another would be to just wait, and go to Galveston with Andy and the boys later. It isn't as beautiful and we will miss hanging out with family but at least the kids will be able to go to the beach. I just don't understand how a company can cancel your plans and cost you a lot of money at the last minute whenever they want. What if we had purchased $1200.00 each plane tickets for three of us to the Caribbean? Well, I'm sure we would have had them insured with that kind of money, but still! I'm lost and limited in a black hole of broken words. I need help!

Vegas Baby, Vegas!

Oh my, I had so much fun. Except that my sister was miserable. She is still in her first trimester and not dealing with it very well. There was so much to do and see. We didn't see any shows. There was not enough time. My total winnings rounded out to about $285.00. After winning and losing and winning and losing I brought home a profit of about $145.00. Not to shabby, eh. I am a "seasoned gambler" now, as Dad likes to call me. We stayed at the MGM Grand which is just that! GRAND! That is where I had the most fun with the slots. Here are a few silly pics of Robyn and a few of us together. The one of the three of us at the table is a funny story. I made resv. at BOA over the internet which says an avg price of 25 per person. We got there and that avg price was actually $50. We didn't eat there! I will be going back to Vegas! With my husband and un-pregnant! I came home to a not as dirty as I expected house, and three excited boys! Fun, fun, fun!

Company

We have had some visitors recently. Nanna and Bopa came into town. The boys absolutely love them. It was a nice visit and we will be seeing them again in a couple weeks. My browser isn't working so I will post those pics later.

Ryon and Becca and the girls were in town for a couple weeks. We got to visit with them for a while. Not long enough. The girls are adorable!!! I just want to eat them up!!

A mix of things..........

Starting week 19 and things are feeling not so crazy. I am not as apprehensive about having a daughter as I was before. I am actually very excited. I just want to protect her from all the people that don't raise their daughter's the way I will. For instance, NO BIKINIS! When I see little girls in bikinis I wonder if there parents have any idea what they are telling their children by letting them wear them. Sure they're cute. ( the miniature bikinis that is) But if they're showing that much skin at that young of an age, whats left for the teenage age years. Or better yet, what kind of message are we sending them about their bodies? Just a thought. Hope I didn't offend anyone. I know, we are all different. So how should I approach the subject when friends or family members give things that I don't approve of, and they want to see her in them or play with them. Should I approach them in private, only if it becomes an issue? Or, should I explain anyway, that we will be exchanging the item for something more appropriate, and offer my reasoning for it, so not to run into this issue again. I pray that the Lord will put the words right into my mouth! I don't want to be a B! or confrontational really at all. It is our jobs as parents to protect our children from the fallen world we live in. Especially at such a young age.




A.j. picked these at the park for me on Sunday. I wish I had taken my camera with me. On the way into the park, these little patches of periwinkle blue flowers were everywhere. There is a little pond to the left with a fountain in the middle. I couldn't believe that in such a populated area, there was a white crane drinking from the water's edge. It spread its enormous wings and flew to the other side. A.J. seemed to think that bird was capable of picking us up and flying away with us. Sometimes I forget how big everything looks when you're that small. It was race weekend so the air smelt of smoked BBQ and was filled with the sound of racing cars. We saw the blimp flying over the track. I tried to explain to A.J. that there were people inside the little box on the bottom. He thought that was so cool! Maybe someday we will get to ride inside a blimp.

These are buds on my wisteria. I'm so excited for them to bloom! I planted this vine three years ago and this is the first year it has decide to flower.

5 Sences......

I stole this off someone else's blog that I don't know. What a great idea.

Sight:
I like...... to look at Sunsets, Art, & picture books
I love..... watching Children, Animals, and facial expressions

Sound:
I like...... to listen to music a lot
the birds singing in the morning
My boys laughing together
Thunder and rain at night

Feel:
I love.... the feeling of the warm patch of sunshine on the floor
clean skin
Streching after a good nights sleep
Cool spring mornings
Fetal movements

Smell:
I love.....the smell of wet cement
blown out candles
burning wood
dried laundry from an outside clothesline
coconut
Hot dogs on the grill

Taste:
I love..... the taste of Tabasco sauce
Cream slushes from Sonic
Orange soda or sherbet
BBQ
Red Wine


Hope to know what my friends enjoy as well.

Rain, rain, stay and play........

We love playing in the rain!!! Although this day it wasn't exactly cooperating. As soon as the boys would run out to play in it, it would stop raining and start thundering. Ben doesn't like the thunder. A.J. is a silly boy.

Oh, and I purchased my first baby girl nursery item. I found this throw at T.J. Max for twenty. This will give you an idea of what Micah's room will look like. I'm not a pink person! Purple and blue are the colors I prefer. I was telling my sister this on the phone and she said she is the same way. Yet I hear, once Micah gets here, I most likely will change my mind. (I highly doubt it) I also am not a big bow person. I like ribbons. Loose floppy ribbons. I almost went with a Raggedy Anne theme and wouldn't put it past me if I go back to that. For now its trees and flowers. Now I will be shopping for bumper fabric to match this quilt. I think I found some at Ikea.

It's a girl!!!!!!!!!

I can't even believe it! First let me tell you that we were not supposed to find out for a few more weeks. I went to the Dr. yesterday for a normal check up and explained that I had been experiencing some pressure down below at certain times. The fact that I have only gained 1 pound in 6 weeks and the pressure I have been feeling made her nervous and she decided to do an internal. My cervix has thinned out already and is shortening. She sent me over to perinatal to get a measurement of my cervix through trans vaginal ultrasound. My cervix measured at 3 cm which is a little short. They said 4 cm would be good and anything less is worrisome. The Dr. at perinatal said there is really nothing to worry about. He wants to check it again next week for any changes and it may be necessary to sew my cervix closed to hold the pregnancy in. It really sounds worse than it actually is. Through the whole process, finding out we are having a little girl was very shocking. The Lord has been speaking to me through this whole pregnancy and I am not worried about anything. My whole world is about to change. Wish us luck and pray for the knowledge and tools for us to raise this daughter of God in his name.